Dear God,

    On today, what would have been my 34th wedding anniversary, I’m sitting here in awe. I never thought I would even be able to face this day without feeling overwhelmed with emotion but today it’s different. The peace and assurance that I am feeling right now can only come you.

   I can’t even put into words how much I Love You and how Thankful I am that you Love Me! I am now understanding your sovereignty, you are God and you can do what you want, when you want, how you want and to whomever you want. You are the Creator of all things, the Sustainer, the Giver & Taker of life. You decide if the sun will shine during the day or if clouds will fill the sky. You decide if the stars & moon will shine by night or or be overshadowed with blackness. I know that Everything moves by your power, however I am not so presumptuous to pretend as if I know all your ways, for “as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are your ways higher than my ways and your thoughts than my thoughts. ~ Isaiah 55:9

 
    I did not understand that in 2013, when my marriage ended but I do understand it now and I Thank you God for choosing me and using my life as a public display of humility. Although the road was the most difficult I have ever traveled, you were with me every step of the way. From the Breaking, through the Building to the Blessing. I know that it was needful for me to pass that way so that I would be equipped for the journey ahead. A journey of transparency that would allow you to use my life to direct others to you, for forgiveness, healing & restoration.  A journey that tells of your faithfulness, your goodness and your loving kindness. A journey that would take me out of my place of comfort and show others that they too can survive and come out of adversity Stronger, Wiser, Better, Healthier & Happy.  A journey to assure others that in you, through you and with you God…Life Goes On.

    As I move forward into this new season of ‘aloneness’, here is my Prayer. Lord urge me to continue to inquire of you for direction and to keep my mind & heart stayed on thee. Keep me in your word so that it will continue to be lamp unto my feet and a light unto path. Please keep me humble, focused and positive as I continue the process of becoming the best version on me that you would have me to be. As I venture out into my community to offer service, please remove anyone & anything that is not in your will. Give me the gift of discernment to see beyond sight, the insight to know the intentions of others and the strength to act accordingly.  Help me to maintain self control so that I may conduct my life within your will…everything I say and everything I do. When I fail in my trying please Lord, give me the strength to shake it off, get up & press on, for it is my hearts desire that my ways may please you and my life reflects you love.