I know, I haven’t blogged in a while, but “I’m BACK”. Feeling inspired & ready to write so here it goes:

One Saturday afternoon during a stepping class I had a melt down. My instructor took me in her room and talked me through it. At the end of our conversation she said to me…”Your Are Enough, where you are right now, You Are Enough”. She went on to say “I know it but…You need to know & believe it”. I made that my mantra. It is plastered all over everywhere. I would tell myself everyday that “I am Enough”. It’s taken me over 50 years to get to the point where I love Myself for who I am and where am in my life. I have always based the acceptance of myself, toward myself on the approval & acceptance of others. I found myself always adjusting to the opinions of others. If someone said I was too fat, I would loose weight, if someone said my hair was to long, I would cut it, if someone said I wore to much or too little make up…I would make the adjustment. I dummied down & dimmed my light because I was taught & told that silence & submission (to & toward others) was the way to please God. Praise God, now I know better! Life is a great teacher & over the last few years it has taught me that my relationship with God, is just that…….MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD and it is not predicated upon the opinions of others.

I have made a conscience effort to undo & unlearn so many behaviors and beliefs from my past. I am now learning so much about Traci and appreciating so much about myself that I took for granted. I know that I am not perfect, I know that I have flaws, I know that struggle with internal & external issues, some I can change, some I can’t change & some I don’t want to change but It is All Me! I know that I love God with every fiber of my being. I know that I am a good person with a loving heart who gives all of me. I know that I am honest, I have integrity, I am intelligent, I am a seeker of peace and restoration with everyone in all circumstances and sometimes, I look at things through “rose colored” glasses which makes me appear to be naïve but just because I don’t speak on it, doesn’t mean I don’t know or see what’s going on. I have goals, I have standards and I have discipline. I am growing everyday in to the person I am meant to be, not the person anyone wants me to be and I make no apologies for that. I Love ME and I know that….I AM ENOUGH! I don’t need family, friend, foe or companion to affirm me….I affirm myself, I AM ENOUGH! Enough for what? I’m glad you asked. I am enough for whatever God has for me to do and whoever God is preparing to love me. I don’t have to be like anyone else or do what anyone else does.

I am Traci J. Caver Adams. I am a 51 year old divorced/single mother of 2 children, grandmother of 2 little girls. I am Full Figured, Flawed, Fabulous, Phenomenal, Beautiful Woman and I AM ENOUGH!