Nights Like This!

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Moment of Transparency: It’s nights like this that I wish I had that special someone that I could I tap or call & say……”Hey, I need to talk”.

Most nights I sleep like a baby, some nights I can feel God tugging at my heart requiring my attention then there are nights like tonight where I just need to talk.

One of benefits of being married for over 31 years was having someone who I felt comfortable sharing my most intimate thoughts with. Someone who I had no doubt, cared about me & with no hesitation would wake up when I tap & answer when I call. Honestly, “sometimes” I miss that. I miss having a companion. I miss what a companion brings to my life (it has nothing to do with sex). It’s about having that significant person in your life that has you & you have them. It’s about having that person in your life that cares for you, like you care for them. It’s about having that person in your life that sacrifices for you, like you sacrifice for them. It’a about being someone’s first thought in the morning, last thought at night & constant thought in between & that person being yours. Divorce took that from me and on nights like this,  has left me alone but not hopeless. I have not given up on Love, that’s the “hopeless romantic” in me. It’s on nights like this, that I talk to God. I tell him my most intimate  thoughts. I let him know that I am focused on becoming a Better Me for Him, Me & the one he has for me. I let God know that I am going to patiently wait for him to send the person he has chosen for me to build a future with. The person who’s Actions reflect their True Feelings. The person who is patient enough to peel back the layers & tare down the walls of protection that I have erected so they can reach my heart. The person who will love & accept me for Me…flows & all. The person who wants to be on this journey of “life” with me. (YES, I am Ready & Willing to do the same.). The person who understands that I am not girlfriend material, I am Wife material!

But until then I guess I will have to get use to nights like this because I refuse to settle for less than the “one” God has for me.

19 thoughts on “Nights Like This!”

    • I understand how you feel, if fact, I feel the same way too. I’m a romantic too and I still believe at my age there is someone like you described out there too. After I read Rhonda Jones book, I started to think about the single journey a little differently. When I become whole, and God mends all the broken pieces back together again, then I believe the right person will recognize it and God will send him my way. Until then, I working on being the best me I can be for God and me.
      He’s coming sweety, just keep doing what you are doing! You know we love you and any of us would be glad to talk to you, no matter what time of the day o

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  3. 1st Lady, you are on to something with your blog. Love ur transperency. There is plenty of women & men going through the same. “Nights like this.” This can pertain to the married & unmarried. Jus because someone is married, they 2 can going through, “Nights Like This.”

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  5. I love you and it’s amazing to watch you travel through this journey! You have come a long way baby!! Such an inspiration.

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  6. Thanks for being such an inspiration to me; you seem to always have food for thought. I’m so glad God allowed our paths to cross.

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  8. There aren’t enough words in all the languages to express how true these sentiments are to so many people… nights like this sounds like a book to me… and I’m certain that women and men all across the globe can be helped, and even healed by your admission on your journey. Love to you!!!!

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  9. ……I AM SPEECHLESS. As I read I am overwhelmed at the POWER OF GOD THAT RADIATES HEALING. HEALING THROUGH YOUR TESTIMONY. THE HOLY SPIRIT IS TRULY LEADING & GUILDING YOU. LOVE YOU FOR SHARING

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