Wow, it was 2 years ago today (May 7, 2013) that I sat in a court room across the room from the man that I had shared more than half of my life with, my only love, my husband, my companion, my confidant, my pastor, the father of my children, my lover and my best friend. We were there at his request to end our life long vow to love, comfort, honor and keep each other for better or worse, for richer or poorer, in sickness and health, and forsaking all others, be faithful only to each other, for as long as we both shall live. I sat there in a daze hoping this was just a dream but it was My Reality……after 31 years of marriage, I was being Divorced!!!! I knew that over the past 3 years things had gotten pretty bad but Divorce never EVER crossed “my” mind. Even as I sat in the court room I still had hope that God was going to fix our marriage, we would reconcile & live happily ever after. I held on to that hope until June 8, 2013 when my attorney called & said “Ms. Adams, the divorce is final”. I just sat there crying, staring out of the window but it was at that moment that I realize that 2 of the 3 Greatest gifts God gave to mankind was the gift of Choice & the gift to Change (the other being Jesus Christ)! So after I finished having my cry, I made the Choice to accept the situation and Change my mindset. I prayed & told God “I can’t do this alone, I NEED YOU” and he spoke clearly to me and said “If you trust & obey me, after this, Restoration Will Come!!!” then I turned on my I-pod and the first song that played was J.J. Hairston & Youthful Praise…”After This” and that song became my Anthem. Yep, that was 700 days ago…..and God has kept his PROMISE! I now realize that on that day, May 7, 2013 I was given a Gift….that Gift was My Freedom, My Life, ME! With God’s direction, strength & courage I have been unwrapping that gift..layer by layer discovering everyday who ‘Traci’ is. What is her purpose, what does she like, what are her goals, what are her weaknesses, what are her strengths, what are her fears. I have had days filled with tears & I have had days filled with of joy. There are some days that I don’t remember, but I can say for certain that the bad days have now turned into moments and when those moments come…..they don’t last long! So on today May 7, 2015….I am Thankful To God and the giver of my Gift, I am Free, I am Living and I am Blessed!!!!
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Now that was powerful. I’m so happy for you to be sharing your truth with others, who knows who you can help and touch. Keep going and doing……your prize awaits.
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Thank You Luv.
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You’re going to bless women and even men all across the board! Keep blogging! Love you ❤️
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Thanks Shauna…love you more
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pt pt aka power through Congrats keep soaring eyes for you doing what you doing man oh man that is awesome it is awesome to see that you are moving on if you got things going on awesome to see that you’re headed to the sky no drama no headache life is good grandbaby / grandbabies man oh man put it in Gods hands life is a test life is a job life is work glad to see you happy boss lady congratulations man I’m an old man
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Thanks Kelz…for all the words of wisdom, support & love. Luv you Bro
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You know I’m like whoa there little lady…. blog on honey. Just think of how many more will be blessed by your life experiences. Won’t He do it!!!!!
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YES HE WILL & Yes He Did. Thanks Luv.
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This is great. Powerful. Touching. Honest. Transparent. Loving. Real! Birthed. Diamond in the Rough. Breakthrough. Breakout.
I can easily see this being a book.
Can’t wait to read more and to continue to be inspired and ministered to. Thank you for being obedient. You are going to touch so many lives.
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I agree with the previous posts, you will bless so many with your transparency! I love you so much and thank God for you being a blessing to the Kingdom of God! 😘😘😘 love you to pieces! Keep blogging!
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Freedom, Freedom, Freedom only when we are Free can we truly witness…may GOD’s grace and mercy shower you…..witness on Ms Traci, witness on….
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Thank you for sharing this intimate life changing experience. I am so grateful you choose Life! Because of your choice and liberty to share this gift…others will Live and that more abundantly! May God continue to bless you and prosper the work of your hands!
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I’m so proud of u!! You inspire me in more ways then not on May 5 it made a year of being divorced… All I can say but God!! Thank u for being you never change being u!!! Love u to the moon and back
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And Look at You Lay-Lay. Living, Loving, excelling school see life goes on when you choose to LIVE and not wallow in pain and self pity. Keep climbing higher..Luv You
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We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony; so Godly proud of you daughter of the Most High King, what you have allowed God to do in you is going to bring healing to masses. Praying that God continues to order your steps on your journey to life in the fullness of Him. I love you Traci J Craver You are an Overcomer!!!
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To God be the Glory for the Miraculous healing He has done… #youaint #seenNOTHINGYET #PeaceandLove
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You have always been a beautiful young lady that I admired since I say ou at Mt. Moriah. I thank God that our paths have crossed and we at the end still remain friends. This blog has blessed me and makes me want to blog as well.
You are wiser, stronger and humble more now than before. The process of a divorce is difficult but if only one person wants the marriage it is hard to keep the other party interested especially when his mind is not on you. God freed you for a reason. Never again walk with your head down or controlled by any other man again. You have been given a new lease on life. So enjoy the ups and downs that this new journey of life will surely give you. I am so proud of you beautiful! Keep your head to the sky! Love you and thanks for sharing. After all you are truly the WINNER in the end.
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As I ‘ve said are a blessing to alot of people men and women I thank God for you and your walk
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Too God Be the Glory Ella. Luv You Sis.
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TO GOD BE THE GLORY……THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING A LIVING TESTIMONY. IT TAKES COURAGE TO SHOW YOUR WOUNDS. ESPECIALLY AS THEY ARE HEALING. I ADMIRE YOUR STRENGTH. YOU ARE GODS LEADING LADY. LEAD ON…….. LOVE YA
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Too God Be the Glory….Thanks Felicia, Love Ya Back. 🙂
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